I’m His

There are so many struggles I have encountered. I’ve buried pain within my soul never sharing what has become apart of me. I’ve believed little lies within my head, never seeking to face them head on to receive healing. These are roots have been embedded under thick stones lingering in darkness never realizing there was light and a possibility to be uprooted.

A few weeks ago I attended Moment Church; Mike Foster spoke about “Labels”. He preached about titles/labels this world has slapped on us and the lies we have accepted in believing it. It’s become a normal experience for the enemy to come into our mind and start whispering deceiving things… The sad thing is we start believing these false lies are real. Daily we live in pain and hurt accepting an imagine that was never meant to be placed on our life. We’ve had people talk down to us, call us names. We have turned on ourselves and have become our own worst enemy. How many people have starred in the mirror I thought, “I’m not pretty enough, I want to change this about myself, I’m not worth anything”. ALL of us have had these moments, we have beaten ourselves up; “I wish I was better”. We fight a constant battle and give into believing what the world portrays what we should and need to be.

Sadly, I have become victim of this….

At the end of the message we were giving wristbands to wear; we were supposed to write what “Label” we have given ourselves. As soon as we were asked to do this; I didn’t have to think twice, I knew the label I have put on myself. So what was my “Label”… “Not good enough”.

I’m going to be honest, I feel like I’m not good enough and that’s on all sorts of levels. I’ve felt like I’m not pretty enough, not skinny enough, not worthy enough due to my past. I’ve acquired debt being reckless that makes me ashamed of myself.

The list goes on..

Looking at everything face value I see my weakness. I’ve felt I always had to have brand new clothes, expensive jeans, shoes, accessories; spending more than I should hoping that through being “hip”, I might look cuter-  ultimately one reason why I am in debt. I am completely insecure about my weight; which has lead me to have a crazy obsession going to the gym. The scale has become a God to me, constantly weighing myself looking to fill a desire to be thin. What about going through bad relationships and feeling like you will never be “good enough” to someone new who may come around.

All this comes down to lies…lies…lies… The enemy knows my weakness and has placed insecurities in my life to “believe” and like a fish I took the bait; the hook caught my lip and as the string was being reeled in, I tried to fight but ultimately I gave in and swam towards the shore to be gutted.

Here is the TRUTH of the matter… I am marked by heaven! I am HIS! I wasn’t made to live in an imagine that puts me down, I was made for greatness and to believe I am worth so much more! Christ died so we can live in His fullness, He doesn’t look at us from the outside and judge what we wear or how we look; He looks on the inside to see our heart. Each of us were designed perfectly by God, we are perfection in his eyes, why would we question our imagine when it’s God who created us?  God has labeled us as His children whom he sent His only son to die for- that’s a love I can’t explain but I’m praying that God helps me understand. Let us embrace how much God loves us and not let the foolish lies of this world pull us down. 

Don’t let anyone capture you with empty philosophies and high-sounding nonsense that come from human thinking and from the spiritual powers of this world, rather than from Christ. For in Christ lives all the fullness of God in a human body. So you also are complete through your union with Christ, who is the head over every ruler and authority.

Colossians 2:8-9

Often I cry just thinking about God. I’ve been on so many journeys following Him; I have had many ups and many downs. Some in which I’ve made really dumb choices and had to deal with my consequences but then… there is light shinning at the end of the tunnel.  I refuse to live in the lies that the enemy places in my life- does that mean my own labels have gone away? No.. I’m human, made of flesh and blood, I am so weak but its HIM within me who gives me strength. Thinking of his love encourages me and builds my faith. This isn’t something that is going to change over night but I’m learning not to believe the labels and soak in the fullness of “I am HIS”. There is no place I would rather be than in the arms of my savior even if that means going through the fire to be refined.

And now, just as you accepted Christ Jesus as your Lord, you must continue to follow him. Let your roots grow down into him, and let your lives be built on him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with thankfulness.

Colossians 2:6-7

Continue to work in me Christ; I am your daughter with arms open wide open, longing to seek you and your will above anything. Help me to be strong within you allowing nothing to distract me. Strip the labels from my life and help me surrender knowing..

 You are ALL I need.