Little Gods

 

“You shall have no other gods before me” ~ Exodus 20:2

What matters the most to you in life? …….Is it your career, cars, clothes, financial status; being the “top dog”? How about God? Does He fit somewhere in your life? Maybe in the shadows and everything else seems to overtake his presence.

There’s a battle I’m fighting and it’s between good & evil, so let me explain.. I have what most Americans want…. A steady job, benefits, money to pay my bills, a roof over my head, you name it!  One of my goals has been to get out of my current full time job which has been supporting me going on 5 years. I went back to school to get my Esthetician license in hopes of starting a new career in something that brought me joy. Now with trying to start a new career what does that come with? Sacrifice! I’m currently working a full time job along with part time job at a day spa. My work schedule is pretty hectic to say the least and for the past 6 months I work 15 days straight only to get one full day off of both jobs. It’s been a challenge! I have to pray for strength and motivation daily because all that’s within me wants to give up. My main focus throughout this whole process was to build up clientele to shift out of my current job and pay off debt I accrued being a knucklehead!  There is one thing I have gained within the whole process and that’s a God, and I’m not talking about the God in heaven whom I believe in. Let me help you understand. I have become accustomed to having lots of money, money to shop, and money to blow on whatever.  Money has become a mini God in my life and I am having a hard time living without it. There has been some positive things which has came from having money, I finally have a savings account and have been able to pay off some of my debt but its become a hindrance because I am sacrificing all my time, family and relationships to have this money. I am having a hard time letting go and realizing it isn’t everything. I think about Francis Chan preaching about how we are so focused on “security” and our future rather than relying on God and having faith knowing he will take care of our every need.

I’ve been praying for guidance but am I really ready to listen to God? I literally have to ask myself this question. With working 2 jobs, I virtually have no time for anyone or anything. Fitting things in my schedule is horrible and has become so stressful. I think back now and I took “time” for granted. I don’t have time to get off work and read a book, go to my parents for dinner, and hang out with friends as a spur of the moment thing. Everything has to be strategically planned out on a night I have off. Even though I want all of this so bad, I think of going back to struggling only working one job and not having the money I have now. It’s sad how money can become a literal “God” in your life. It has become mine and I’m just being honest. I’m sacrificing time in my life for money- rather than my initial intension of paying off debt and shifting into another job.

Now this is all coming down to one thing…. I don’t want to live for anything but GOD.. Not money, not my career, not possessions.. I want to live my life for God and God alone. I want to know I have enough strength to be completely broke and know as long as I have God that’s all the matters. I woke up and read in Proverbs and knew without question it was God speaking to me…

“Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches, but give me only my daily bread. Otherwise, I may have too much and disown you” ~Proverbs 30:8-9

I know I am distant from God, not that he is far from me but I am far from Him! I haven’t prayed like I used to, I haven’t worshiped like I used to, I haven’t sacrificed time like I used to for Him. What a shameful thing to admit but I’m human and fail. It’s time to make some changes and that comes with making sure God is first in my life, not money, jobs, or any relationships. I want to know when I get to heaven and stand before God I am content knowing that my relationship with him came before anything and everything!

So I have to ask you this question, what do you worship? What are you placing before God?  We weren’t made to worship anything but Him!

“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only those who do the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!”

 ~ Matthew 7:21-23

I’m His

There are so many struggles I have encountered. I’ve buried pain within my soul never sharing what has become apart of me. I’ve believed little lies within my head, never seeking to face them head on to receive healing. These are roots have been embedded under thick stones lingering in darkness never realizing there was light and a possibility to be uprooted.

A few weeks ago I attended Moment Church; Mike Foster spoke about “Labels”. He preached about titles/labels this world has slapped on us and the lies we have accepted in believing it. It’s become a normal experience for the enemy to come into our mind and start whispering deceiving things… The sad thing is we start believing these false lies are real. Daily we live in pain and hurt accepting an imagine that was never meant to be placed on our life. We’ve had people talk down to us, call us names. We have turned on ourselves and have become our own worst enemy. How many people have starred in the mirror I thought, “I’m not pretty enough, I want to change this about myself, I’m not worth anything”. ALL of us have had these moments, we have beaten ourselves up; “I wish I was better”. We fight a constant battle and give into believing what the world portrays what we should and need to be.

Sadly, I have become victim of this….

At the end of the message we were giving wristbands to wear; we were supposed to write what “Label” we have given ourselves. As soon as we were asked to do this; I didn’t have to think twice, I knew the label I have put on myself. So what was my “Label”… “Not good enough”.

I’m going to be honest, I feel like I’m not good enough and that’s on all sorts of levels. I’ve felt like I’m not pretty enough, not skinny enough, not worthy enough due to my past. I’ve acquired debt being reckless that makes me ashamed of myself.

The list goes on..

Looking at everything face value I see my weakness. I’ve felt I always had to have brand new clothes, expensive jeans, shoes, accessories; spending more than I should hoping that through being “hip”, I might look cuter-  ultimately one reason why I am in debt. I am completely insecure about my weight; which has lead me to have a crazy obsession going to the gym. The scale has become a God to me, constantly weighing myself looking to fill a desire to be thin. What about going through bad relationships and feeling like you will never be “good enough” to someone new who may come around.

All this comes down to lies…lies…lies… The enemy knows my weakness and has placed insecurities in my life to “believe” and like a fish I took the bait; the hook caught my lip and as the string was being reeled in, I tried to fight but ultimately I gave in and swam towards the shore to be gutted.

Here is the TRUTH of the matter… I am marked by heaven! I am HIS! I wasn’t made to live in an imagine that puts me down, I was made for greatness and to believe I am worth so much more! Christ died so we can live in His fullness, He doesn’t look at us from the outside and judge what we wear or how we look; He looks on the inside to see our heart. Each of us were designed perfectly by God, we are perfection in his eyes, why would we question our imagine when it’s God who created us?  God has labeled us as His children whom he sent His only son to die for- that’s a love I can’t explain but I’m praying that God helps me understand. Let us embrace how much God loves us and not let the foolish lies of this world pull us down. 

Don’t let anyone capture you with empty philosophies and high-sounding nonsense that come from human thinking and from the spiritual powers of this world, rather than from Christ. For in Christ lives all the fullness of God in a human body. So you also are complete through your union with Christ, who is the head over every ruler and authority.

Colossians 2:8-9

Often I cry just thinking about God. I’ve been on so many journeys following Him; I have had many ups and many downs. Some in which I’ve made really dumb choices and had to deal with my consequences but then… there is light shinning at the end of the tunnel.  I refuse to live in the lies that the enemy places in my life- does that mean my own labels have gone away? No.. I’m human, made of flesh and blood, I am so weak but its HIM within me who gives me strength. Thinking of his love encourages me and builds my faith. This isn’t something that is going to change over night but I’m learning not to believe the labels and soak in the fullness of “I am HIS”. There is no place I would rather be than in the arms of my savior even if that means going through the fire to be refined.

And now, just as you accepted Christ Jesus as your Lord, you must continue to follow him. Let your roots grow down into him, and let your lives be built on him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with thankfulness.

Colossians 2:6-7

Continue to work in me Christ; I am your daughter with arms open wide open, longing to seek you and your will above anything. Help me to be strong within you allowing nothing to distract me. Strip the labels from my life and help me surrender knowing..

 You are ALL I need.

Dear Charlie....

Each of us has a journey we embark everyday, every year, every season. Through these journeys we are clay in the potter’s hand, molding us, shaping us; beckoning us for greatness.

Valleys we cross are filled with high & low peaks, paths when the sun shines so bright and others when the darkness seeps through.

I've seen the glory of the Lord but this time it's been an experience I will never forget. 

Devine appointments can be the sweetest of things and sometimes in the mist of it, you don't even realize it. God brought a dear friend back into my life after 10 years. The night we planned to hang out, I was hesitant thinking 'Gosh it's been so long-what are we gonna talk about?'... I mean come on you see old friends & what’s the typical line 'how are you' - 'I'm doing great'... But that's not how it went- we gabbed it up. I shared my faith and how God has changed me- ironically we were going to a church event that night. She expressed her feelings and how she has never known 'God' or really ever walked with him- she was going to 'check it out'. 

From that night on we kept in touch, she started attending church with me on Wednesdays and was going to her sisters church on Sundays. She dove into the word reading her Bible, asking me all sorts of questions & about all the crazy stuff that happened in the Old Testament. (Ya our god is insane) Shoot she read more than me & I was the believer! Conviction- thanks for that by the way. Through everything she grew closer & closer to the Lord, she prayed, she asked for Him to reveal himself to her- 'God tell me your real!' She knew there was no denying him- she gave her life to him, she was baptized & I was honored to be there when happened... 

Now there is something I haven’t shared with you...In the 10 years I hadn’t seen her, she got married and her desire was be a mommy- the week before I saw her for the first time, she miscarried her baby. I can't even fathom the heartbreak and emotions that you experience going through this as a woman. Through her brokenness she was empty, she longed for something more than the life she was living. Through her fear she took that step of faith to seek God and before my eyes I have watched this amazing women transform into a beautiful daughter of Christ. She has even ministered and helped build my faith at times when I was down! 

Now here's the blessing... Through walking with Christ she left all her desires at Christ' feet- I still remember her telling me 'I'm going to trust him'. I was in awe of her and how much she had grown. Then I received the best news... I'm pregnant! I could have cried because I knew it was by Gods grace he had blessed her to conceive again.

A few months ago baby Charlie was born and when I sat with her in the hospital I cried talking about the journey she has been on & how I have been right along side of her to see it. I can't explain how honored I felt to be apart of her life and see everything transform. As I cried, she held baby Charlie in her arms; she leaned down kissed his head & said 'You brought me to God'. 

Through the pain of miscarriage, she reached out to God- He took her life, transformed it and then blessed her with a beautiful gift. 

Sometimes we never know that even in the midst of our problems or troubles it leads us to Him. There is nothing like Christ' love & the amazing plans he sets before us- though there may be pain & tears there is something so glorious unfolding.

Remember even in our weakest of moments Christ is carrying us, longing us to have a relationship with Him- Never give up- there is always a blessing right around the corner.

I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly - John 10:10

                                                   Meet Baby Charlie

Are you there God?

                'There is no God'.... 'God isn't real'.....

I was told these things the other night by one of my family members. My heart felt crushed. I'm not gonna lie I could have choked this person, my first thought- I want to punch you in the face & knock some sense into you. (Don't worry no anger issues here) Due to life's struggles and the decisions this individual has made, it has lead him to give up on the one who loves him above anything...The one who died to give him life. I sat there crying just thinking of what Christ gave for each one of us. How much more does his heart break over ours when his sons/daughters give up hope? What happens when faith is lost? How about when faith was never found? How can you search for words to say when they won’t be heard?

That day was nothing short of trying. I felt anger, fear, pain..  Tears streamed down my face. What could I do, how could I change things... So many thoughts ran through my mind, realizing in the end there is absolutely nothing I can do... The feeling of being helpless came over me. In my human nature I wanted to take hold of the situation, I wanted to 'fix' things; I wanted to change what was going on....

So what's the ending conclusion??... I can't control anything... It's so hard to swallow the only truth- GOD is in control, no matter how much I fight, no matter how much I try... He has a plan, He has a purpose... Trying to understand everything only leaves me more confused, I'm learning the only thing I can do is pray and keep all my faith & trust in the hands of my savior.

Now if you don't know me- one of my most difficult struggles is not having control, giving it all up, letting the reigns go. It's humbling. I'm the stubborn kid in the grocery store throwing a fit because I want a candy bar & my mom says no. I always want what I want... And when I want it.. I’m like give it to me NOW. Haha. But... that's not how God rolls- It's His will and His timing! Oh how that is bitter but so sweet!

I keep hearing God's voice override my thoughts while I’m contemplating how to fix this.  God is like a broken record on repeat...'Give it to me'... 'He must learn'... I'm grinding my teeth in the process... Buttttttt Lorddd... Why must we always try to take things in our own hands? Why don't we listen?? Why can’t we lay it all at his feet?

So here’s the infamous question.. What is Christ teaching me?

We all know he continues to open our eyes in the midst of our blind moments... It all comes down to faith... So here’s the lesson he continues to knock into my head... To have more faith in Him... To allow him to do what he does best- Be God!

God is crazy, let's just be honest! ... He never fails to amaze me with the way he goes about things. So for now I have one option...TRUST... Trust He will restore the heart of my family member... Trust His plan is far more infinite than my pesky plans... Trust in the healing for my family... Trust that He is mighty to save, even when it seems that hope has been lost.

He’s never failed me, so why doubt now.

'I'll take up my cross and go wherever you go' - Hillsong United

My Angel

Do you believe in angels? Do they only exist in Heaven? What about on earth?

Here is a story of an angel appearing in front of me in human flesh.

As I have shared, these past couple months have been very difficult for me - even the past couple weeks my life has been turned upside down. I've had so many emotions run through my veins they could pop!

The feeling of being vulnerable is such a scary thing! Who wants anyone to know or see how much they are struggling? We have a pretty good game of putting on the face of happiness! People asking "How are you"- "Im doing great, thanks for asking"- Only deep down you know how much hurt is consuming your mind and body. Something that is difficult for anyone is opening up- being completely transparent. No masks to hide anything- laying it all on the table.

As this angel came to me- I let everything out, I confessed, I cried- I could hardly breath. I was at a point of complete surrender- putty in her hands. Broken. At this moment I didn’t even realize I was on my way to healing.

　

Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results. James 5:16

I believe in divine appointments and God putting certain people in our lives for different seasons- this was an appointment only given to me by the mercy of God. As I sat there in my brokenness, I was embraced with so much compassion, love and tenderness. I was encouraged, prayed over and was reminded how Christ took it all for me- he wiped my slate clean! She reminded me of how I am a daughter of the most high God, how He loves me, adores me and has forgiven me.

I can’t explain what was taking place in my heart while she showered me with love. It was Christ shining right through her speaking to me. In that moment I caught a glimpse of Him- what a beautiful experience even in the midst of the heavy tears pouring out.

Since this night a weight has been lifted from my shoulders- I feel alive and I feel new. I have had so much peace about the circumstances I have been struggling with that I could care less about "worrying" about them anymore. I have wrote so much about "Trusting" God – "Laying things at His feet"- I truly believe I am at that final point where I look to the clouds- smile and know My King is holding me tight and I am now able to receive what He has in store for me. I am receiving the healing He wanted to bring me- it was through His angel that I was able to embrace it and start the journey.

I want to thank my angel- For allowing God to use her in mighty ways; always being available to be used by the King. Reflecting what the greatest commandment says- LOVE! Her heart is filled with compassion and mercy. She is one of the most beautiful women I know – inside and out! Tender in her touch even with her spicy lil attitude that keeps you on your toes! I not only consider her my friend but a sister.

Thank you my dear sweet Brenda- You are the angel sent from God- to help restore my life and receive the healing God has wanted to give me!

　

Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. John 15:13

The Road

Sometimes I feel like the Lord strips us of everything to lead us in a different direction. Right now I feel like I am losing what I have been comfortable with - only for Him to restore & lead me down another path. I think we all can agree going down a road with no signs is a scary thing and there is always fear of not knowing what tomorrow will bring. I think about something a girl from my bible study said…. "God tells us to pray for our daily bread for Today, not for tomorrow- yet we are always so focused on tomorrow we forget about today." How true is this!

　

I’m at a place where the only thing I can do is throw up my hands & say "Lord I trust you!" One of the most difficult things is realizing God has a plan for each one of our lives and allowing Him the opportunity to reign over all of it. We always seem to have our own motives and desires but that doesn’t matter because this life was never about fulfilling our needs but what we can do to further the Kingdom of Heaven! Sure- we love to kick & scream on the way but when we realize the end of the story, how glorious does it always end up? So why do we fight along the way?

　

Something I have felt comfort in is The Holy Spirit! I know for many of us we don’t know much about Him and the church is prone to talking more about God the Father- Jesus the Son; but what about The Holy Spirit?

　

But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.

~ John 14:26

　

I have grown so much in The Spirit and it has brought a new light into my life! It’s like realizing something that has been with me all along yet I have been so blind to truly see it and reach out to it! Lately I feel like I don’t even know how to pray in the midst of the craziness but something I realized is in those times The Spirit is praying for me!!

　

And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will.

~Romans 8:26-28

　

I love the last part- "God’s own will." I can try to plan my future but ultimately God has a plan for my life; He had a destiny for me long before I was born. Through the suffering I endure God has something so glorious in store for me! I cried like crazy the other night while I was praying "Your will be done Lord!" In the midst of this tuff time I am experiencing it’s insane how many people have reached out to me saying how much I have encouraged them in their faith! Through my pain it has brought glory to the King.

　

Instead, be very glad—for these trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world.

~ 1 Peter 4:13

　

I don’t know God’s will for my life or why He is taking me through this time but everything in my heart is leaning on the promises of God. He has never failed me before so why would He now? I have comfort knowing that in my weak moments when I have no words to speak, The Spirit is interceding for me and that is all I can ask for! I will never understand God or His master plan for my life but as long as I bring glory to His name- Well…. That’s all I can ask for!

The best part- I have 3 people all in 1 who watch over me- God the Father- Jesus the Son- and The magnificent Holy Spirit!

In Your Hands

How do you hold onto something that was never yours to begin with? What does it look like to fully surrender?

　

"Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from me; nevertheless not my will, but Yours, be done." Luke 22:42

I have strong moments when I am confident knowing I am laying everything at my Fathers feet then the next day my heart breaks and I ask God "How about I just take it back". Why is the hardest thing in life to Trust God? I just don’t understand…

　

Francis Chan preached "Do you believe that God loves you more than anyone else on this planet? Think about the people who love you on this earth & how much they care for you- The Creator of the universe LOVES you more than they ever could"

　

Have mercy on me, O God, because of your unfailing love. Psalm 51

　

How can I be so blind to realize God always has my best interest at heart? He continues to tell me TRUST Him although I hold tight to the problem or the situation and don’t want to let it go.

　

I can’t help but think of this poem a pastor read at service:

　

As children bring their broken toys
with tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God
because He is my friend.
...But then instead of leaving Him
in peace to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help
with ways that were my own.
At last, I snatched them back and cried,
"How can you be so slow?"
"My child," He said, "What could I do?
You never did let go!"
-Author unknown

　

I can’t help but realize- THIS IS ME! God gives me peace through moments that are difficult and hard but then at a weak point I try to snatch it back when I just need to leave it at his feet!

I’m struggling with things in my life right now- I prayed on my way to bible study last night to really TRUST the Lord. I told Him I want to know His will for my life but right as I said that I immediately got scared! I even told God- I’m afraid to really know your will – What if that means quitting my job, moving somewhere else, ending relationships- Christ does frighten me! Right when I told Him that He told me- "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you." I remembered hearing this verse at times in my life but I couldn’t remember the whole thing.

　

At bible study all the women shared about God and how it's so hard to really give things to Christ & TRUST Him- How He requires us to have FAITH. I shared that on my way to the study I prayed I TRUST the Lord more but how I told Him I am scared of Him- How I want to know His will but I am frightened to know what He will tell me in return.

　

When I left the study- I couldn’t get what God told me out of my mind "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you" I wanted to know the complete verse- so I looked it up and it reads-

　

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

　

I immediately started crying- God knows my heart has been troubled this week and He told me to not be afraid! I couldn’t believe that in my honesty of telling Him- I’m scared to know Your will for my life, He was telling me "Don’t be afraid".

　

So what does my life look like today? Thankful- thankful I have a Father who LOVES me so much and is my comfort. That no matter what I face in this life He never lets me down- even through pain and suffering- He never leaves my side.

　

When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer. Psalm 94:19

Better is one day in your courts

This Sunday while I was in church the worship band sang....

"Better is one day in Your courts,

Better is one day in Your house,

Better is one day in Your courts,

Than thousands elsewhere"

I thought to myself I do really believe this? It cut straight to the heart and I couldn’t stop thinking about it throughout the service – it was like a broken record on repeat. It sat on my mind throughout the day and it was like God was asking me- Do you truly see me this way?

I spent some much needed time with the Lord yesterday. Reading and praying- it was amazing! I prayed that I would sacrifice anything and everything to him because "Better is one day in His courts than a thousand elsewhere." I think we can get so wrapped up with what this world offers that we forget about eternity- me included. What we don’t realize is everything on this earth is temporary- material things, relationships, jobs and even family! There is something so much bigger than "us" but we don’t get it.

While I was working today I received an email from one of my good friends with Psalm 81- As you read through the whole verse- what comes up…..

A single day in your courts
is better than a thousand anywhere else!
I would rather be a gatekeeper in the house of my God
than live the good life in the homes of the wicked. Psalm 81:10

I love the verse that follows….

For the Lord God is our sun and our shield.
He gives us grace and glory.
The Lord will withhold no good thing
from those who do what is right. Psalm 81:11

I am speechless thinking about how God continues to speak to me even through the littlest of things. I absolutely love how He reveals pieces of Himself everyday and I long to hear His voice above anything. I leave you with this-

Do you TRULY believe "Better is one day in His courts than thousands elsewhere?"

The heart of the matter

What's on the heart of the righteous? How about the unrighteous?

I can't help but always feel like a runner- Walking... Running... Sprinting... Jumping over hurdles.. Life is hard- no doubt and at times I feel like I make it harder on myself.. After I grow from one situation, I can't help but slightly not learn from my mistakes and fight the battle again... My best friend told me a Saint is a sinner who fell down & got back up. But here's the question- Why do we repeat the same pattern?

At the end what am I realizing is there is only one who stands strong- Christ.. Friends, family and even relationships may let us down but no matter what there is one person we always seem to forget to give our attention, hope, love and dedication to... Jesus.

　

Then those also who have fallen asleep in Christ are lost. If only for this life we have hope in Christ, we are of all people most to be pitied.

1 Corinthians 15:18-19

If someone took a bullet for you- What would you do? How about someone who got their back ripped open to save your life? How about someone who was mocked & suffered for you? Would you want to give them your life in return?

Why did Christ take all the pain for us yet we continue to push Him to the side at times? He tells us not to worry.. But we do!!!

　

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? Matthew 6:25-27

He tells us to trust him... But we don't fully give him our 'issues'.

　

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6

Do we forget how He heals the sick, raised people from the dead- He can move mountains! God never changes- He is the same today just as He was yesterday and thousands of years ago!

I wish I was strong enough to be smarter in life. My head and flesh take over my heart at times and it kills me! My desire is to dedicate my whole life to Christ but my actions don't always reflect that. How can a Father continue to love a child who constantly rebels? But this is the thing- He NEVER stops loving us- even when we mess up and come crawling back with our head hung low- He picks it up & says- I love you no matter what my child. Now He may want to give us a quick smack (let me tell you I deserve a few) but our God is a God of second, third, fourth chances! But now let's not get carried away with running a muck and not trying to learning from our mistakes!

I know I'm growing- it's an everyday process (to say the least) but I am thankful for the LOVE Christ shows me. I can't even wrap my mind around how He continues to LOVE me even when I deserve to be put in the corner for a 'time out'.

　

Grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Ephesians 3:18-19

I'm thankful that even in my dumbest moments He always shows me the way- thank God for conviction! Whew- Tuff at times but I am so grateful for it!

So my story goes a bit like this, I love Christ; He’s my everything- He brings new life into me. I’m definitely not perfect and still mess up but God takes all my broken pieces and makes me whole again- for that- I will spend the rest of my life praising his name!

To God be the glory!

Open your gift

This week I have found that God has been stirring something up in me. My faith has grown stronger, I’m learning about my flaws (who would have thought!.. lol) and learning about God and how he works in miraculous ways.

There has been more than one time this week when I have listened to a sermon on line & the pastor preaches on a specific verse, only to have my pastor recite the same scripture- coincidence I think not!

I attended a women’s bible study this week for the first time and the topic they had been discussing was on Spiritual gifts. They had discussed about certain gifts they have never encountered the prior week and how they wanted to know more about them. One of the gifts they never had experienced was ironically a gift that God had the honor of blessing me with – which I only came to realize last year! I was able to share with the group about what God had placed in my life and of course they were all in shock as they had just discussed that topic last week- coincidence I think not!

As I drove home from the study I cried thinking about the power of Christ and how everything he does is so intricate! He aligns many things in our life- but here’s the kicker- are you willing to allow him to work in your life and be used for his kingdom?

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

Ephesians 2:10