In Your Hands

How do you hold onto something that was never yours to begin with? What does it look like to fully surrender?

　

"Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from me; nevertheless not my will, but Yours, be done." Luke 22:42

I have strong moments when I am confident knowing I am laying everything at my Fathers feet then the next day my heart breaks and I ask God "How about I just take it back". Why is the hardest thing in life to Trust God? I just don’t understand…

　

Francis Chan preached "Do you believe that God loves you more than anyone else on this planet? Think about the people who love you on this earth & how much they care for you- The Creator of the universe LOVES you more than they ever could"

　

Have mercy on me, O God, because of your unfailing love. Psalm 51

　

How can I be so blind to realize God always has my best interest at heart? He continues to tell me TRUST Him although I hold tight to the problem or the situation and don’t want to let it go.

　

I can’t help but think of this poem a pastor read at service:

　

As children bring their broken toys
with tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God
because He is my friend.
...But then instead of leaving Him
in peace to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help
with ways that were my own.
At last, I snatched them back and cried,
"How can you be so slow?"
"My child," He said, "What could I do?
You never did let go!"
-Author unknown

　

I can’t help but realize- THIS IS ME! God gives me peace through moments that are difficult and hard but then at a weak point I try to snatch it back when I just need to leave it at his feet!

I’m struggling with things in my life right now- I prayed on my way to bible study last night to really TRUST the Lord. I told Him I want to know His will for my life but right as I said that I immediately got scared! I even told God- I’m afraid to really know your will – What if that means quitting my job, moving somewhere else, ending relationships- Christ does frighten me! Right when I told Him that He told me- "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you." I remembered hearing this verse at times in my life but I couldn’t remember the whole thing.

　

At bible study all the women shared about God and how it's so hard to really give things to Christ & TRUST Him- How He requires us to have FAITH. I shared that on my way to the study I prayed I TRUST the Lord more but how I told Him I am scared of Him- How I want to know His will but I am frightened to know what He will tell me in return.

　

When I left the study- I couldn’t get what God told me out of my mind "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you" I wanted to know the complete verse- so I looked it up and it reads-

　

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

　

I immediately started crying- God knows my heart has been troubled this week and He told me to not be afraid! I couldn’t believe that in my honesty of telling Him- I’m scared to know Your will for my life, He was telling me "Don’t be afraid".

　

So what does my life look like today? Thankful- thankful I have a Father who LOVES me so much and is my comfort. That no matter what I face in this life He never lets me down- even through pain and suffering- He never leaves my side.

　

When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer. Psalm 94:19